5. Your life is a constant search for the endless winter. It’s not easy to live a nomadic life. What’s your secret to keep your motivation up?
I’m not going to lie and say it’s easy. This past winter, I almost through in the towel, I wanted to give up. I was going through a depression, I lost friends to the mountains and in life, I got frostbite, I through out my back, and I was going through loneliness, it’s not easy having a girlfriend, when you spread yourself around the world. Returning back to the Yukon in the spring where I use to live, sparked my fire, I felt so much positivity from friends I haven’t seen in a few years. They made me believe in myself. They made me feel like everything I was doing was right, and to keep pushing for my dreams. I haven’t stopped splitboarding in 4 years, every month, there’s always a mission, whether it’s summer or not.
When I got back from Norway, I didn’t even want to think about loading my pack with multi day gear to tackle on my June objective at home. I looked at the weather, and saw my window was right then, before rain came in. I left my door on foot, and hiked 30kms to the tallest peak in my home range to camp at the weather station. When I arrived to the summit I was greeted by a mountain goat at the top that stayed with me the whole time I was there. You can’t make this stuff up, life is meant to be lived in the moment, and you have to listen deep down to that inner voice. Even when everything around you tells you it isn’t possible, even your head. You have to look deep within and find that inner fire. Amazing things will happen to people that push with full on determination.
I beat my depression, and that fire in me is stronger than ever. I’m so hungry for the mountains and my love of snowboarding has never been so strong. It makes me feel like a kid playing in the snow. I love how you can create, build, and mould ideas out of your head into the snow. And really, all we are is riding a glorified piece of wood down insane looking mountains, and that’s pretty badass. As well many moons ago, I had a near death experience. It’s not a PG story so best to ask me in private! My heart stopped and luckily I came back to life 11 years ago. I had an epiphany a few months after, and realized how lucky I was to have a second chance. I saw the other side, being pulled in from lost loved ones. It was the most euphoric feeling I’ve ever felt. I felt like I had no bones, no pain, I felt like a jelly like substance. Then I literally went from heaven to hell, being slammed back into my body and being surrounded by doctors telling me I had just flat lined. In the end, I’m not afraid of dying, I’m afraid of not living.